I finally had the chance and the mood to update. I don't know where to start but all I can say is that I'm glad that everything is ok except for some things which need to be fixed - problems of the heart as usual... they aren't mine but if a friend is need, then I should be there to help. No time for my own problems of the heart as of the moment. Hahaha! Anyway, I really missed being with my blockmates. I missed laughing, singing, talking and eating with them. This term we met new friends and new professors. So far school has been fun and more challenging at the same time. After our first week in school, we realized that this year is definitely going to be more challenging than the past year because this time we really have to read and study hard. Gone are the days when we just relax and do nothing when we get home.

Last Saturday, my mare and I went to Fete de la Musique. It wasn't that good. The bands were ok but I didn't enjoy it that much plus Bamboo wasn't there. Too many people and the crowd wasn't that good. Good thing Kissy met up with Ngo Dee and Ralph and so we decided to stay at Ralph's place instead. I had so much fun hanging out with Ngo Dee, Ralph, Val, Angelo ("Bamboo's Cradle"! - wtf!?) and Kissy of course. As usual Kissy and I got drunk. Laughtrip! Hehe... I enjoyed our game entitled "I haven't..." It's really fun and you would really learn a lot about the people you're with. I'm gonna play that again next time. Hahaha!

Yesterday, Sunday, was so freaking boring. I spent 3 hours in church for my rels church involvement thing even if i had this very bad hang over. I only had 2 hours of sleep and I was able to hear 3 masses all in all in one day. Lampas langit na siguro ako noh? Hahaha! I met new people inlcuding one Indian priest. I was able to ask a lot of questions about him and about being a priest - not that i want to be one but i was able to satisfy my curiosity. I was also able to ask who "rings our bell" in church! hahaha! (I was wondering if we have a kampanerang kuba. Hehe)

Today was ok. My report was postponed so I have to do it on Wednesday instead...

So there... I have to go now. I still need to catch up on my sleep...

Btw, even if it's late already I would still want to greet:
My dad and all the fathers out there: Happy Father's day!
Mom, Donna, Mish, Milan (fc ako) and Pao: Happy happy birthday! Love ya guys! (super extended na ha... hehe)

Blockmates! Finally may party na tayo for this summer!

EDA GO will be celebrating her birthday on May 14 at CELEBRITY CLUB (Capitol Hills Drive, Diliman, QC) from 4 til mga 12 daw. We can swim daw muna if we want from 4 til 7 tapos 7:30 daw kain and inuman. Tara guys! Punta na tayo! This is the "gimick" of the block that we've been waiting for! See you there!

Text her daw if you can make it or not: 09178994503


As usual, pag may nag party sa block ako yung excited. Hahaha! Wala lang... I'm just helping her invite people! There's nothing wrong with that, right?

I can't really say that I had fun during the trip that my friends and I had. It didn't start and end well. We had our visits to the beach, our bonding moments, drinking, eating etc. but still I didn't enjoy it. We had a house, a driver, a secretary and maids to our selves because I asked for it but I didn't know that it would be very difficult to manage everything knowing that my parents weren't around. Something was missing. I should've listened to my parents right from the start because they were correct. I really had a hard time. I was stressed, pressured and harassed. I got easily irritated when something's out of place, when something I asked for wasn't given or when my directions weren't followed. It was really hard being the host and most of all it was hard being alone. I enjoyed my stay in that old house (referred to as bahay ni lola) though things were kinda messed up. My memories in that old house were running in my head as soon as I entered. I missed every part of it and the people I was with there before. My stay there was the only thing I enjoyed during the whole trip. I'm just happy that my friends enjoyed their stay. This time I couldn't say the lines "next time ulit" or "sa uulitin" when it was time for everyone to leave. Honestly I wanted the whole trip to end really soon. I was really bothered. I guess I was just tired. I have learned another lesson and it sucks because I had to learn it the hard way...

Pictures from the trip:
http://carlitaseniorita.multiply.com/photos/album/20

To my kabarkadas, please read this:

Tuloy na tayo this Friday (April 22) sa Pangasinan!

Since the van will be available at Bea's house on Friday pa at around 6 in the morning, subukan naming makaalis ng mga 6:30 am. You guys should be in Select (meeting place) at around 7. Dapat complete na kayo and please try to be on time. The first thing we'll do is to load all of your bags in the van and then ambagan na tayong lahat. Mga P500.00 each for everything na yun. Ako na yung maghahawak ng money nating lahat. Don't worry, lahat ng gastos sasabihin ko and isusulat ko. It will include the gas for the van, gorcery, drinks and kung ano ano pa. Basta divided by 10 (or kung ilan tayo) lahat ng gastos. Kakain na lang din tayo ng lunch sa daan. Don't forget your toiletries (kasama towels malamang) and include Off lotion na rin daw. Yung drinks siguro dun na natin bibilhin since for sure puno na yung likod ng van sa gamit natin. Bring your pillows na rin (pero may pillows dun). Who ever wants a sarong, you can borrow from me. Just text me na lang. I have 2 extra sarongs here. Text niyo na rin ako kung sino yung mga sure na sasama, ok? Good news pala for the boyfriends na magddrive, may driver na tayo. Si Junior pa rin kaya we can all sleep on our way there. Hehe! So far 12 na tayo (sasama daw si Job and MJ) and may mga di pa sure. Si Donna na lang yung di pa nagtetext sakin kung pinayagan na sha. Guys please tell me rin kung yung boyfriends nyo pinayagan na or may iba pang sasama ok? Call or text me kung may problems, suggestions or questions kayo.

Bring your cameras and yung mga may assignments, dalhin nyo yung mga assigned sa inyo ha? (sounds, lights, speakers etc)

Girls: we're going shopping with in this week right? Kelan na? I can't wait!!! Excited na ako! I'll see you soon!

I've been devastated these past few days. Someone special to me left me unexpectedly. As my mom, Ate Barbie and I were eating dinner, coming from the garden Yaya Boy went to the dinning table and asked if I was done eating. I nodded and I stared at her. I asked her why and she said calmly "Kang, patay na si Jigo..." I didn't know what to say. I was shocked. I looked at my mom and my ate and I said "Wag nyo akong kausapin. Walang magsasalita. Kinikilabutan ako." All of them were really quiet and waiting for me to react but I didn't know how to. I just kept quiet and sat still. I asked our other maid to go to the garden and check if what Yaya Boy said was really true. After a while, she went inside and said "Wala na nga talaga. Di na gumagalaw." As usual Yaya Boy kept on talking as if she didn't hear what I said. I stood up, looked at all of them, screamed "I said shut up!", left them and I ran to my room. I cried so hard and memories of him were running in my head. I informed some people about it and every message I read would just make me cry but thank you so much for your messages (Dad, Bea and Pao). I just couldn't stop crying that night and expectedly I had puffy eyes when I woke up which was the day of my Genpsyc exam.

I'll really miss my baby who's been with me for eight years. Once in a while I would still cry because every corner, every part of the house really reminds me of him. My baby who's very malambing, my baby who's been my constant companion most especially when I'm down, my baby who sleeps beside me, my baby who always sits under my chair so that he can guard me from people who comes near me, my baby who always welcomes me at the gate when I come home from school because he wants to be carried, my baby who always asks for food most especially fried chicken when I eat, my baby who only drinks water with ice or milk, my baby who doesn't want to get dirty, my baby who doesn't want to step at any wet surface, my baby who always makes siksik when we sit or lay down, my baby who greets me every morning when I wake up, my baby who always wants to be hugged and kissed, my baby who's considered the prince / seniorito of the house because he's very maarte, my baby who barks at everyone even at my parents and people he has seen already. I know I won't be able to play with him anymore, I won't be able to kiss, hug, carry, hear him bark when I accidentally leave him inside my room, see and smell his baby powder scent anymore. I won't be able to see him lying down at his favorite part in the sala which I look at often these days hoping that I'll see him there again. I won't see him perform the only trick he learned from me which is to give his paw when I ask for it. I'll always remember this very irreplaceable creature that was given to me which brought so much joy and now pain to me. I'm sorry I wasn't there at your dying moments and when you were laid to rest. I still just couldn't accept the fact that the baby I loved and will continue to love and remember forever is gone. I couldn't replace the memories I have with you. I know I can't bring my baby back but for sure he will always be remembered.

I LOVE YOU JIGO. YOUR MOMMY WILL NEVER FORGET YOU.

Thank God this week is almost over. We've gone through our hell week! One more exam on Friday and I'll be finally getting my summer vacation!

Anyway, I would like to congratulate our block for getting a 4 in litera and in filipi. We're really the BEST BLOCK! I love you guys! I'm so proud of our block! This calls for a celebration!!!

Pictures during our poetry festival and while waiting for our blockmates at the William Shaw corridor:

http://carlitaseniorita.multiply.com/photos/album/19

http://carlitaseniorita.multiply.com/photos/album/18

I had so much fun with you guys last night. I missed those times when we'd all just sit together, relax, grab a light and talk about stuff. It's nice to be hanging out again with people you really trust and to whom you can just be yourself. Like what we have talked about last night: ang gaan ng feeling pag magkakasama tayo. I'm looking forward to our Pangasinan trip which I know you guys are really waiting for. Haha... I promise, tuloy tayo.

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN BEA!
I hope you had fun kahit ang daming pasaway... hehehe THANKS FOR THE GOOD DINNER!

pictures from last night:
http://carlitaseniorita.multiply.com/photos/album/17